I feel offended just reading this. If my spouse wrote something like this about me, I’d be devastated.

Frankly, you can’t be a good partner for a marriage if you haven’t dealt with your issues, because a partner can’t fix you. A baby can’t fix you. You knew that you had esteem issues and yet you’re justifying framing the issue as your husband is an asshole and you need time away from your baby.

It sounds like you’ve spent a lot of time assuming how your husband will respond rather than vocalizing your needs and your fears, and giving him a chance to respond to your honesty. That’s not fair to your husband, yourself or your son.

Please seek both individual and couple’s counseling because you’ll be a single mom in no time if you stay on this route.